When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
Siren's Song
Thursday, April 03, 2003
Excellent analysis of me from a friend taking Masters in Psychology:
"...On a more serious side, it must be hard to be kinda holding back when making
friends hey? I feel bad girl, coz I'm like the complete opposite, I just
lunge in and get as deep as my friends wanna get, then again, I got the
luxury of knowing I ain't going no where no time soon. I mean, just guessing
here, but maybe you're the type of girl who's always surrounded by people
yet for whatever reason, you can still feel totally alone. Or am I a crap
guesser!? Anyways, continue that crystal ball... to you, making friends here
might be about having fun and learning stuff from others, but a voice in the
back of your mind keeps telling you to hold back. Even though the idea of
opening up and connecting in a real way is kinda simple, still, it must be
important if everyone else doing it. So, I'm kinda thinking, it must be real
hard for you if you feel like you're missing out on such a simple thing,
know what I mean? Hell, I'm not sure if I know what I mean? Just read it
again, what da?!..."
How weird. I mean, I'm so used to people around me being impassive, self-contained, and totally indifferent to my existence. It is a rude awakening to realize that I'm abnormal, or at least, what I perceive of other people is twisted. Why is it that people can make friends so easily, and I simply can't? Forever lost in myself, shut off from the rest of the world. The wall I built around me is my oyster.
